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it should be written down.

now i know WHY i was so inclined on 29.04 as my departure date:
this way i’d be able to see my grandmother alive.

since it became apparent that i can’t leave on 29 – i was waiting for consequences.
will there be an accident with a plane? or something, anything to explain my uneasiness?
when yesterday came a message that my grandmother suddenly feels worse – i knew that’s IT

It may seem like a whim, like an unnecessary haste, like an stupid thing to do.
But you better DO IT ANYWAY.
That is the lesson.

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i’m coming home today i’m coming home
today I’m coming home today I’m
coming home today I’m coming
home today I’m coming home today
I’m coming home today I’m coming
home today I’m coming home today
I’m coming home today I’m coming home

after almost 6 years of absence

буду в хабаровске ~2-3 недели, возможно заеду во владивосток.
планирую АКТИВНО ничего не делать, гулять по амурскому бульвару и лопать мороженное

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i’ve hurt my leg on monday and i’m to be stayed at home for 2 weeks at least.
my mother when being told about my situation replied that it would be a “great time for thinking and acknowledgement”
i cracked laughing out loud – couldn’t help it really.

but i must tell – she was fuckin’ right.

been trying to put a finger on the source of my uneasiness since yesterday and this is what i have:

the truth is i’m afraid of depending on other people and being let down by them.
so i had severed all connections of any kind i’d had in last years.

i’m positively surprised that there IS one person to do a bit of shopping for me in a nearby shop, but i still unmistakably hate my dependence on him in this matter.

мысль что в случае чего мой труп найдут примерно через месяц
не довлеет над моим сознанием, но постоянно обретается где-то на бекграунде.
from twitter; 14:02, Mar 10th from web